I am sharing a reading today about life sometimes being a rollercoaster - the joy and the fear... and it got me thinking. This taking it one day at a time... one moment at a time is okay for now. Look, I'm a planner. A serious planner. Down to the minute. I hate not KNOWING. I hate the insecurity of not knowing my future....
But, I realized my journey, right now in my life, involves just taking SOME things at face value. Being present. Taking in the good and the bad. It's just my moment right now. No planning is available to me. I have no idea what will happen in my life even a week from now. The beauty is - NO ONE DOES. But I have lived my life like I do. Like I KNOW. But I don't. Especially now. And it's ok. really it is.
Sometimes it is good to be just here. today. now. wing it a little. Change your mind. Often. I am constantly talking about being present because I need that reminder. But never have I felt this life lesson so strongly. I am living for today. For the joy of the moment and even the sadness in any moment. I am trying to be extremely honest with myself. why did I do that? how can I change that? How can I do better next time?
I am constantly asking these questions. I know I am not perfect. Believe me I know. But I do try and I do fail sometimes.
Thank God I have all the amazing people in my life that I do.... I really am grateful for the here and now.
Ok, I realize that my rapid fire way of leaving comments like, two minutes after your blog post, probably makes me seem like I'm e-stalking you...but...haha...you're on my Google Reader, so it pops up like an e-mail! :)
ReplyDeleteAnyway: YES! Thank you for the reminder to live in the moment. I posted on my own blog (www.andreajames.net) a link to a video taken in San Francisco just days before the earthquake of 1906, where 3,000 people died. We have no idea what the future holds -- right now is all we have.
You're one of the first people to really teach me that. I remember you said something in class (two years ago!) about how you lost your wallet because you were rushing. You left your wallet on the street or something (doink!)
Ok I'll let someone else comment now. :)
andrea Love, trust me when I say I love that you respond!!! It tells me I am not just writing for myself :)
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oh and it was my wallet - I left it ON TOP Of my Car!!!! You are amazing for remembering!!!
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